I can't wait!

I'm coming home for sure in a few weeks!!

I sooo miss California!!! I'm a city girl, I can't hack it here in lame ass Texas!!! Its boring and my only girl friend here, I barely see, and the other girl friend is in one of the Carolinas. Sooooo LAME!! I just need to have a good outting with just my girls when I get home and once I have money again!! But atleast I got to spend lots of time with my hubby. And I have stronger relationships with more of Daniels family because I called them a lot and some friends from home. I miss how htings were but I know when I get home things are going to be different, and I'm different. We'll see how things go when I get there!

In other news. Daniel got me a little puppy finally. I've been saying and getting excited for puppys whenever Daniel found one and I never got one. Until the other day. Shes a chihauhau/Collie with more Chia in her! Shes sooo tiny and a little lover dover.. I love it!!

Think Optimistically!

I come home for 2 weeks starting Tuesday!

I get my puppy Meko the day I get back to Texas.

I MOVE home for 15 months mid. September

Daniel gets deployed a week after Thanksgiving.

My goal for the time I live at home:

1. Go to school.
2. Make sure All bills and loans are paid off for both Daniel and I.
3. Don't over work myself (I need to remember I don't need to work as much, Daniels making plenty of money now).
4. Save as much money as I can (Don't go crazy shopping)
5. Make sure the dogs are well take care of

I'm trying to get my life in order and prioritize everything. I know I need to not let things get to me and keep myself busy while Daniels gone, but I don't want to overwork myself again. I want to get rid of all the bs in my life and stop dealing with stupid childish shit. I may have a lot of differences then everyone else I know but its the life I chose and I'm loving it. i don't care if you all think I'm too young and I'm missing out on a lot. Thats just something I'm over. I have higher priorities then parties, getting drunk, and all that stuff. I still like it and will go out once in a while. But its not something thats a big part of my life anymore. I have my girl Joan to tell me about parties and living the life I kinda missed out on and I'm there as an example of what works and what doesnt work in the real world. I'm kinda the 'this is what happens when you drop out of school and get married' not to do story. But you know what, I'm getting through life and what doesnt kill you makes you stronger! Sure I wont make a ton of money when I'm older, sure I missed out on a lot, but I know how tough it is out there and being slapped in the face so many times teaches me a lot and I can help everyone else out when they get stuck later.

I miss my friends so much. Some more then others.

Its sad how you can think everythings all good and junk and then you find they're talking behind your back. I mean I think I know my friends pretty well and I know when one thing leads to another. I'm slightly disappointed and didn't think that would happen, but sometimes you see who your real friends are when you leave and you see who sticks with you.

I have to say that Joan has been there with me through a lot of my upset moments. I mean someone I know I can talk to about my parties and wild stories shes one of the first people I have to call when I just need someone to talk to and to help me take my mind off things.

So Daniel got us a new puppy. Shes a wolf-shepherd mix. Super cute and shes going to be super big! Perfect for when we move to a house in Colorado when Daniel gets back from Iraq! Woffy and my little baby boo Missy get along some what, they're still getting used to each other and fight over loving! haha... My two baby girls are sooo aborible!

Other then that things here in Texas are fine. The weathers finally calmed down and the suns almost always out, so I spend a lot of time by the pool gossiping with Tina.My sisters might come and visit us during 4th of July week. Hopefully they can make it, the guys have lots of fun things planned for the weekend and are going to go nuts with the fireworks (oh boy, somethings going to catch on fire or someones going to get hurt!).

Daniel and his "I'm in the army" junk is helping us out a lot with stuff. He got my credit card bill to go from $8000 to $4000 with one phone call, and my credit wont be affected through that account. Fucking finally. My other bills and shit. Well we'll get to them, or I will when I go to Bartending school and start work out here. I'm not even worried about getting new sofas and a tv and junk. Even though we have the money and Daniel can get all that stuff on post for dirt cheap I'm going to leave all that up to him if he wants to, but I'm not going to push it anymore. If anything I'll save up for all that when I go home and we'll get everything we want when we get to Colorado. I guess its a big weigh off my shoulders now that most of the bills are taken care of and I'm not supposed to worry about them, I just have to give Daniel the bills and he works them out.

Its funny how things have their own ways of working things out. I'm really trying to control my temper and emotional outbursts here. Lets just say I'm glad I'm so tiny that I can fit into the bathtub and take a bubble bath every once in a while! It really helps with the stress and the emotions! Because damn so much is going on right now that its hard for me to stomach and deal with and I'm finding out what helps to clam my ass down before i do anything rash.

Man O Man!!

I MOVED TO TEXAS!!!

The weather kinda suckys. Its like ugly and looks like I'd be cold outside but its hot and mucky. And the first few nights here there was a thunderstorm and crazy ass scary lightning. It was sooo scary but its home now. I really don't feel like I left home, well I do, I miss everyone so much. Daniel has a friend who is just like Anthony and all the boys already are calling me fat, just like at home. haha... My only girl friend here is another army wife and we hang out when the boys are at work. Shes from Georgia and is sooooo Southern.... haha... she cracks me up. and her and her husband are like the southern version of Daniel and I.. its sooo funny when we all hang out.

But I'm still in the process of moving into the loft. I like the set up but its a little smaller then the place i had in san jose. Daniel and I are doing a lot better finacially here though. Since everythings cheaper we can afford so much more and soon we're going to be buying a whole new living room set and a big tv so im excited. I just wish i could be living like this in cali. And Daniels ferret and my Missy get along well so thats good... they chase each other around the loft and play fight.. its soo funny because missy is like 3 times bigger then the ferret but it kicks my dogs ass when they fight.

But yeah.. I really miss home but I'm dealing with this move better then i thought I'd be.

SMOOCHIES!